Tonight I reactivated my account with eHarmony.

Yes, I have an account with eHarmony.

I made it once, at the thoughtful urging of a friend to "just try it."

And within the week deleted it.

And so today, I was thinking about it. 

And thinking about the fact that I have to go to my brother's wedding in 7 short months.

And I got back on.

Just to, you know, check it out.

And immediately deleted my account again.

I'm not sure what scares me more:

The fact that I might meet a raving lunatic.

Or the fact that I might actually meet a great guy.

But then have to tell people that we met "online."

It's not quite the black-and-white-movie romance I've dreamt of my whole life.

I want a better story than that.

(Maybe that's why I'm single.)